I came back to drink beer again.
I was having a great Saturday with awesome beer.
I think it’s very healthy to do at least one thing you like to do in a day.
Today, I would like to talk about giving.
I have always been a giver in my life.
My parents gave to me.
My friends have given to me.
My girlfriend gave to me.
I was given by those around me.
I never gave of myself.
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In the past, if I did something for them (birthday gifts, telling them how I felt, giving them love, etc.), it meant I was giving to them and they were giving to me.
I used to think that it was mutual.
But I realized that it was actually self-satisfaction.
I realized the difference between self-satisfied giving and non-satisfied giving.
The difference between self-satisfied giving and non-self-satisfied giving is that when you give, you don’t expect anything in return from the other person.
Probably, I automatically ask for the love that will be returned after most of the giving.
I think this is unavoidable.
It is only when we grow up and experience unpleasant experiences or situations where we don’t get affection back that we start to feel that it is okay.
And if you are not used to it, you will always have the feeling of “I am” which is centered on your own feelings.
The truth is
If you don’t have a partner, your life is boring.
We should live for the sake of others.
Of course, you don’t have to consume yourself unnecessarily, but I give freely to those who I want to make happy.
This is actually a very difficult thing to do in the relationships.
But the people around me have always done it for me.
Until now, I’ve always been given to without taking any risks.
It was very easy to live for me.
From now on, I want to return for them.
I’ve learned to be happy with who I am.
I want to take risks and give love.
I hope I can actively take risks and give love to others.